Tuesday, March 22, 2011

More than funny

I do this blog because I don't want to forget a moment of this season of our lives but I also do it as a diary for my girls & me to look back on. Good days, bad days, funny days...right now I feel like our family is in survival mode but it's been that way for too long and I just want to get back to where I feel like we're thriving. I feel like time is going by too fast & I'm missing opportunities to teach them, experience things with them & how do you make it slow down? Will I 5 years from now realize that I didn't spend enough time teaching them something? Motherhood seems a evermore overwhelming task as they get older.

Having 4 little ones can be lonely. Not that I would change how many we have or how closely we spaced them but it makes it more difficult to do things that when you have two or they're older, it's not a big deal. I've never shied away from taking them with me everywhere but with our preschool, Kindy schedule it makes it hard to do planned activities or a bible study or a regular Moms group which is isolating to me. We had a whole night away last weekend when Mammy & Cheryl came which was so awesome to just have some time together but it was also a reminder that it is so hard to do things like that now.

Today has been a rough day, it's going to be a rough few weeks with Jason gone & I'll try and pray to have a happier heart tomorrow. Haley was grumpy, Harper was whiny, Lily was full of drama and Lacy, well Lacy almost always has a happy heart!

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